Tonight's guest blogger is Xiaoxue Gu—known to her New York friends as Summer.
In Sex and the City, Carrie Bradshaw says, year after year, twenty-something women come to New York in search of the two "L"s: Labels & Love. I am not a big fan of romantic sitcoms. But I fell in love with the idea that so many great artists are never tired of romanticizing New York City with movies, music, photography, books, and more. They make me believe that there must be something great about the city, and that’s why I come here.
I have been here for more than one year and every day is like riding a roller coaster. One second I got an intern offer and believed that the world is my oyster, the next I felt abandoned when my landlady asked me to move out in three days. One second I was touched by the performance of a street violinist, the next I was choked by the heavy smell of urine at the entrance of subway. One second a warm-hearted old guard helped me with directions and waved goodbye, the next I stumbled in the crowded street and an arrogant tall man yelled at me, “Don’t fucking push me!” New York City makes me both fulfilled and exhausted. But every time I look up at the city’s skyline against the morning sun, I feel rejuvenated.
When night falls, lights are lit. Looking out the window, I see people on the street rushing around against the backdrop of the trembling city. My heart dances a little bit every time I begin to think about the life stories behind those people, their reasons for coming to New York, their whimsical dreams, their passion, their hope, their sorrows and happiness.
After my night class, I took a subway home and a Mexican family sat opposite me. The chubby father fell asleep on the shoulder of his wife and snored loudly. His wife, a Mexican woman with heavy eyeliner, was reading a story book to their daughter. The cutie was licking a cupcake with pink icing, while listening to her mum. They made me understand a little more about the reasons people come to New York. Living here, no one can hide away from a feeling of forlornness and forsakenness, especially for those people who leave their hometowns and come all the way here. But the city makes up for it by supplying everyone with infinite opportunities, opportunities for turning life around, opportunities for creating a better life for the people we love, and opportunities for getting closer to or even going beyond our dreams.